I started thinking one day about the things that I’ve lost since I got sick.
Motivation, drive, energy, work (not literally, I am still employed but not able to work), my figure, identity, etc etc. Easy to get wrapped up in that list!!
I took a walk yesterday and had some fun taking different photos and it hit me like this.
Looking at the things I’ve lost is like focusing down on the nitty gritty details and forgetting the bigger view.
Tiny red berries made larger by zoomed focus
Imperfections made obvious by close focus, whereas a larger view shows only the pretty colours
Right up close view of a flowering succulent shows every tiny detail
Trying to focus on lavendar blowing in the wind, a tricky job
Pink and white berries brought into near focus
Red red rose bud about to burst, making the rest of the garden fade out of focus
Zoning in on the prickles of the holly leaves rather than the pretty red berries
Zooming in shows the new leaves, the green leaves and the dying leaves
Sometimes ignoring the bigger picture does give a better view…
Beauty in the close-up of this pretty white blossom
It can be enticing sometimes, getting wrapped up in the details, reminiscing, thinking, remembering; the view can be quite nice
But instead of focusing on the negatives and blowing the small things up into bigger things, looking at the bigger picture and seeing what I have gained is a lot more useful.
Time, opportunity, creativeness, hobbies. The bigger picture.
Suburban sunset: it may have lines and wires criss-crossing but overall it’s a beautiful picture
It’s something I have to learn, re-learn, remember, re-remember so that I can get the benefit out of it. So I’m writing it down and hopefully when I need it, I’ll remember that I’ve written it and remember where to find it and I’ll read it again!!