I started thinking one day about the things that I’ve lost since I got sick.
Motivation, drive, energy, work (not literally, I am still employed but not able to work), my figure, identity, etc etc. Easy to get wrapped up in that list!!
I took a walk yesterday and had some fun taking different photos and it hit me like this.
Looking at the things I’ve lost is like focusing down on the nitty gritty details and forgetting the bigger view.
It can be enticing sometimes, getting wrapped up in the details, reminiscing, thinking, remembering; the view can be quite nice
But instead of focusing on the negatives and blowing the small things up into bigger things, looking at the bigger picture and seeing what I have gained is a lot more useful.
Time, opportunity, creativeness, hobbies. The bigger picture.
It’s something I have to learn, re-learn, remember, re-remember so that I can get the benefit out of it. So I’m writing it down and hopefully when I need it, I’ll remember that I’ve written it and remember where to find it and I’ll read it again!!